June 2016
The slap of disappointment stings when I have been working hard and still fall short of my personal goals. This is where I find myself as we are heading to our annual Plexus Convention – we were supposed to go to convention as Senior Gold …. and …. my hope can’t ever be in anything of this world – especially in my accomplishments.
Life is going to happen and things that are out of my control can take me out! It usually catches me as something physical, mental or emotional. Getting sick, having a migraine attack, not understanding a how or feelings of hurt or sadness have been known to stop me in my tracks. Heck, being a creature that craves stability and routine structure – changes to my daily plan can knock me off my “A” game. So many opportunities to grow, to learn, to respond differently.
As a recovering control freak, I know that each moment of every day I have the opportunity to stop and ask – What do I hope for and what am I hoping in? And if my answer has anything to do with my ability or results I can create – I am going to be very disappointed in the long run.
Satisfaction – true deep lasting contentment – comes from living a life that glorifies God! I am grateful that my relationship with Jesus and the truth of who God is has been planted in my soul by Him. When I get rattled and knocked off that illusive “A” game – spiritual rattling doesn’t happen in the same ways it has. I no longer question God’s goodness, his greatness or his plan. I KNOW that he loves me and that HIS TIMING is perfect. And there is peace. It isn’t that I am working toward the wrong goal, its simply that my timeline and his don’t match. Keep working. Keep growing. Keep believing. Keep dreaming.
Working towards a God given dream is going to require God’s intervention. That is most likely going to include growth, change and other uncomfortable stuff. My hope is in you – today, tomorrow and forever.
Romans 5:5 (NLT) ~ And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.
This month, I choose to go there with God. He has lessons for me in every season both the celebrations and the disappointments. God show me what you love and what you want to remove from me. Hold me close. I know you will grow me. I know I want there to be more of you and less of me. I know you will complete the work you started in me – that is your promise! I don’t know what else I need to learn or what I have to unlearn … but I am willing and God, I know you’ve got this!
