God knows

I realize now that there will always be a before or after the accident.  Since I got the phone call, I have learned way more about myself, my limitations, and the limitations of this world. I have had a lot of quiet time with God. I have learned more about just how fearfully and wonderfully complex we are made. I have had a glimpse at the complexity of the human brain that is so far beyond complete human understanding.

God, I believe your promises! Please give Thad deep restful restorative healing sleep. Heal his brain and make every cell work the way you created it to and make every thought fixated on you and your absolute love for him. Build a hedge around us both blocking any of the fears either of us may have. Allow us to think only thoughts and dream only dreams aligned with your good pleasing and perfect will. Multiply our hours as if the earth is standing still. Let us both hear your whisper in our hearts. God, I have seen your fingerprints on so many situations. We are being sustained by the prayers of people all over the world that we know that also love Jesus. 

So much info and so little brain space. Thank you God for knowing our everyday before you formed us in our mothers womb. Thank you for choosing us before you laid the foundation of the earth. Thank you for comforting us and being with us always. Thank you for people that studied to know the big words and how to help fix it.

Y’all, Thad is still struggling with his injuries….the doctor said he should make a complete recovery and God knows exactly when. We are fully believing the promise of Phil 4:6-7. These are just a few of the things we are specifically praying for in terms of his concussion:

• He wants desperately to be able to talk normally again. He is good for 6-10 minutes when he first wakes up – and then the words start to disappear, the stuttering starts, the frustration sets in, and exhaustion takes over.
• He wants to be able to stay awake for more than an hour.
• He wants the flashbacks to stop. He wants the nightmares to stop.
• He wants to stop spinning – the dizziness keeps him from being able to walk on his own.
• He wants the ringing in his ears to stop.
• He wants to remember – it seems that years might be missing from his memory on top of not knowing “when” he is.
• He wants the seizures to stop.
• He wants to be able to focus on anything for more than 5-7 minutes before exhaustion kicks in.
• He wants to go outside and bask in the sun or take the boys to play at the park but any light is still incredibly painful.
• He wants to be able to see clearly and see only one version of what he is looking at.
• He wants to be able listen to music instead of the ringing and other sounds he is hearing right now.
• He just wants to feel more like his normal self again.