A week and a half to ponder this whole alignment thing …. I can clearly hear where God wants me to go. The first steps are always the hardest part – acknowledging my starting point, drawing the line and then starting.
I’d like for this to be the easy part. I’d like for this to be effortless, painless and comfortable. However, anything sanctifying is seldom any of those things. The little whispers in my heart have turned into writing on the wall – it’s time to take that next step … to change.
This is part of Him finishing the work in me …. my journey to become more like Jesus and simply His! The areas God is pointing out to me are all a part of getting well.
John 5:6
When Jesus saw him lying there, and knew that he had already been a long time in that condition, He said to him, “Do you wish to get well?”
I read that and feel the weight of it. It isn’t a little convictions starting to creep in – its the whole hog weight of Jesus telling me the choice is mine. Do I want it? Will I work for it? Do I trust him? Will I do what he tells me to? When God calls us to make a change – I believe His provision and protection will be there to support me through.
John 5:8
Jesus *said to him, “Get up, pick up your pallet and walk.”
Can it really be that simple? Just start …. Lisa, get up and move. Give me an action to bless. Give me someone to talk through. Give me an opportunity to help you. So I did. I journaled about my spiritual, mental and emotional state. I had an amazing discussion with Thad and celebrated all that God is doing in our marriage. I did a full budget review and were are good. I put off the physical to the end because I know that is where God is prompting me to get well.
So where am I medically? I have a few GI things that I have ignored – so step one was to face them. Last week I had a good appointment with my primary care doctor and overall, I am not nearly as out of whack as I thought I was physically. There are digestive issues with family history that needed to be addressed so yesterday I had an endoscopy and colonoscopy … one was clean and normal and one wasn’t. In a couple weeks I will find out what not normal really means.
So for today, I praise God for the provision I have. I am grateful for:
- Dr. G – she is a gifted internist that cares and helped me get moving. She called today to make sure that I am still moving after she got the reports.
- Dr. I – he is a godly man and a very calming presence as far as GI doctors go. He is holding my hand through the process reminding me to stay present and not even attempt to skip steps. He was gentle with me during the tests and I am not feeling as sore the day after as I have been in the past.
- Plexus – both of my doctor’s fully support my use of Plexus and believe that my overall good health is directly related to my use of Plexus supplements. They have history, they know the change, and they are both encouraging me on both the physical and financial journey of our Plexus business.
- Out of Pocket Maximums – might seem odd to include this, but we have really good insurance and even though our out of pocket maximum is high – God provided us the means and the ability to be prepared for paying our bills. With Thad’s injury and recovery, I do not need to stress about additional bills coming in because our out of pocket max was met a few months ago.
- Naturopathic Medicine – there are so many ways to get information about our bodies from our bodies. I am choosing to explore them all and trust that God will shine his big ole bright light on the pat he chooses for me to take …. there are options to getting well – completely physically well!
- Thad – He was willing to listen as I talked through the whole mess of getting well. I love my husband and I am truly grateful he is still with me and that God has shown us how to support each other with our new reality.
